Ayumi Hamasaki - Trauma

Today's happy face, today's sad face.
Yesterday's weak self, tomorrow's strong self.
If it's you, who are you showing it to? If it's me, who should I show it to?

Time is sometimes a cruel thing,
but the present is made by that cruelty.

Unceasingly searching for someone, an instant of release
soon triumphs over the visiting fear.

As I don't even notice the flowers shaking before my feet,
I can't even look at myself in the mirror.

Today's happy face, today's sad face.
Yesterday's healed wounds and today's deeply opened wounds.
If it's you, who are you showing it to? If it's me, who should I show it to?
The sanity and insanity that I was given and are mine only,
Both exist together without negating the other.

Futile things, spilled things, and useless things...
I'll choose with confidence, so I am of myself.

Because I have always defined happiness with my own standards.

Today's happy face, today's sad face.
Even if yesterday's healed wounds have opened today,
If it's you, who can you show it to? If it's me, I want to show it to that person.

my life at uitm melaka lendu with my senior, classmates and event hehehhehe

uitm melaka.....

hahahahha skarang aku dah jadi student uitm yang sah.... hhoohoohooho best gila... walau pun aku asyik skip makan demi menjimatkan duit... tp aku still happy kat sini... mmbe2 besdt gila... aku happy sgt2 kat sini... tp... aku rindu nk balik rumah la... huhuhuhu giiiiillllaaaa punya rindu nk balik rumah... tp x pa la... aku cuba la tahan... macam la aku x penah dok asrama kn??? heheheheh ok blog see you next time ok...  


p/s: miss u much my lovely blog......

Japanese song... LOVE SONG.....

Love Song-Yamashita Tomohisa

LOVE SONG 
(Lyrics & Song: Yamashita Tomohisa
Arrangement: HIKARI)


Itsumademo issho ni iyou ne tte futari chikai atta kedo
Futari no shiawase na jikan wa toki o kizumu no o yameta
We promised each other, that we'd always be together

But the happy times we had have stopped ticking 

Ima machigai ni kidzuitemo Boku no ayamachi wa kesu koto ga dekinai
Kimi no koto omou to itoshisa de mune ga itai yo
Even though I've realised my mistakes now, they can't be erased
Whenever I think of you, the love makes my heart hurt
Itsuka moshi mo mata guuzen dokoka de aetara yarinaoseru no nara
Tatoe nani ga okita tte hanashitari wa shinai
Kitto kimi yori mo ii hito nante mou inai
Ima yatto kidzuita
Dakara mou ichidou boku no soba ni itekurenai ka 
If, just if we could meet by chance again someday, and if we could start all over
If, just if anything happened, I'd never leave you 
For sure, there's no longer anyone better than you, 
I've finally realised that now
So won't you come and be by my side once again?



Me ga samete fu to hidari o mitemo Kimi ga iru wake nante nai yo ne
Kimi no nukumori nokoru kono heya ni irarezu machi e aruku
Waking up I glance to my left, but there's no way you'd be there
Unable to stay in this room that still retains your warmth, I walk out into the streets

Taekirenu kodoku no naka de mou kimi no koto shika kangaerarenai
Mou ichidou dake boku no hontou no kimochi tsutaetai yo
Amid this neverending loneliness, I'm no longer to think of anything but you
I'd like to let you know my true feelings just once more Dakara moshimo mata guuzen dokoka de aetara Boku wa kimi ni iu to
"Jibun katte de gomen ne, kimi ga inakya dame da yo" to
Aenai jikan ni kuzureta ai no bun dake kitsuku dakishimeru kara
Konna wagamama na boku o yurushite kurenai ka?
And that's why if we ever met by chance again somewhere, I'd tell you
"I was selfish and I'm sorry, I can't go on without you"
Because when we didn't see each other, all I could do was hold tight to what was left of our ruined love
So will you forgive this selfish me?

Aenai jikan ni kuzureta ai no bun dake kitsuku dakishimeru kara
Tatoe nani ga okita tte hanashitari wa shinai
Kitto kimi yori mo ii hito nante mou inai
Ima yatto kidzuita
Dakara mou ichidou boku no soba ni itekurenai ka?
When we didn't see each other, all I could do was hold tight to what was left of our ruined love
So if anything happened, I won't let go
There's certainly no longer anyone better than you
I've finally realised that now
So won't you come be by my side once again?
Soshite itsu no hi ka kimi to eien no ai ni chikai o
And so, someday, a promise of everlasting love with you…

wahai adam ku....

            Adam…

Hati ini kuserahkan kepada mu…

Ikhlas tanpa ada keraguan yang membelenguku….

Hati ku ini mohon dijaga sebaiknya….

Hanya itu pinta ku….

Jika hati itu tidak lagi penting buat mu….

Kembalikan lah kerana seandainya ia terguris…

Tiada yang dapat merawat parut yang berbaki…

Masa hanya dapat merawat namun parutnya membawa seribu kapahitan didalam hidupku…

Adam….

 Andai ikhlas kau mencintaiku….

Berkata benarlah wahai adam…..

Supaya tidak wujud keraguan di hati ku….

Supaya tiada kegusaran bersarang di ruang hati…

Supaya tidak hadir sembilu fitnah yang bakal mencarik-carik hati kita yang telah bersatu..

Supaya wujud kepercayaan antara kamu dan aku…..

Adam..

Hatiku sering menjerit pabila terlalu sakit menanggung kerinduan pada mu…

Adakah kau jua sama merasakannya? Ada kah hati mu turut menderita?

Hatiku turut merintih pabila mengenang kau dalam perit kehidupan……

Adakah kau jua sama merasakannyya? Ada kah hati mu turut merintih apa bila aku yang menagih simpati itu

Hati ku tersenyum lebar mendengar akan berita gembira dari mu… segunung sukur ku limpahkan kehadrat Yang Berkuasa, Allah s.w.t.

Adakah kau jua sama merasakannya? Adakah kau turut merasa keggembiraan itu…

Adam….

Mengertilah….

Mencintai mu dari pandangan mereka satu yang mustahil..

Namun bagi ku …

Mencintai mu satu nikmat….

Dicintaimu satu anugerah…

Kehadiran mu di dalam hidup ku satu petunjuk yang indah…

Pengorbanan yang ku lakukan bagi mempertahankan cintai ini bukanlah pengorbanan yang sia-sia kerana kemanisannya kian aku rasa….

Jauh disudut hatiku…

Syukur yang teramat sangat kerana hadirnya kamu menunjukkan aku kebenran di jalan ALLAH YANG BERKUASA…

                                                 RESTUILAH HUBUNGAN INI YA ALLAH….. 

siapa kah adam ku???

     Asal hawa dari rusuk adam…. Hadir hawa membawa riang dihati adam… hadir hawa membawa bahagia kedalam hidup adam di syurga Allah….

Oleh itu aku sering tertanya-tanya…. Rusuk siapa wujudnya aku? Adakah aku membawa riang didalam hidup adam ku? Adakah aku dapat membawa kebahagiaaan  kedalam hidup adamku di mahligai yang kami bina bersama atas nama CINTA KERANA ALLAH? Wahai adamku, mengertilah dikau bahawa aku terlalu ingin menjadi hawamu yang sempurna buatmu. Walau tidak di mata orang biarlah dihatimu hanya aku yang bertakhta. Biarlah hatimu hanya milikku… tiada insan lain disitu hanya aku. Dan ketahuilah adam ku bahawa hanya wujud satu adam dalam hati ku dan adam itu hanya kamu.

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